live fully so you can die complete

from plain surviving to bold living - rooted in integration, intimacy, and initiation

rad·​i·​cal: the root, the origin.

er·os: life force, desire, embodied love.

is your life full…or just full of noise?

At 3 AM on a Tuesday, I lay awake feeling successful and completely empty. I had everything I thought I wanted and felt like I was dying inside. I know this feeling because most people I work with describe it exactly the same way...

That hollow ache in your chest when the alarm goes off.

The way your shoulders carry tension you can't shake.

The disconnect between who you are and who you perform.

It’s Not Burnout. It’s Disconnection.

What's missing isn't another strategy or system. It's the courage to feel what you've been avoiding.

What Comes Alive When You Stop Performing?

Within 30 days: Your body begins to relax. Sleep improves. That chronic tension in your shoulders starts to release as you learn to feel without drowning.

By month 3: Conversations become deeper. Conflicts become opportunities. You're saying what you actually mean instead of what you think people want to hear.

By month 6: You're living from choice rather than fear. Work aligns with purpose. Relationships are based on truth, not roles. Sex connects rather than just releases.

Long-term: A life that leaves nothing unlived. The unshakeable knowing that you're exactly who you're meant to be, offering exactly what the world needs.

This Work is a Return.

I guide people back to their instinct, their depth, and their edge.

This isn't self-improvement. It's initiation. A return to the part of you that knows how to feel without drowning, love without losing yourself, lead without controlling.

A return to the origin of your own life force - your Radical Eros.

work with me

Solo

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1:1 mentorship

High-voltage coaching. No fluff. Just truth, challenge, and transformation.

Couple

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couples coaching

Deep work that happens only in the reflections of another.

group

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retreats

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“Do not ask yourself what the world needs. Ask yourself what makes you come alive. And go and do that, because what the world needs is people who have come alive.”

— Howard Thurman

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hey, I am ish.

Growing up in an undocumented, conservative household and spending my entire adolescence in fear, I became good at blending in within a world that wasn’t mine in an attempt to feel safe. This showed me how fear creates an internal prison, a "soul death" before physical death.

Through more than a decade of parsing out my own truth, and in the process, encountering many deaths of different versions of me, I now help others do the same - break free from fear-based surviving to creating lives they can die proud of - full of self-belief, incredible relationships, and of deep service.

“NOT HOW LONG, BUT HOW WELL YOU HAVE LIVED IS THE MAIN THING.”

— SENECA

the ethos and the work

“There is one way of breathing that is shameful and constricted. Then, there’s another way: a breath of love that takes you all the way to infinity.”

— Rumi

TESTIMONIALS

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    "Ish is simply amazing! The way that he kept his presence with me made me feel heard, cared for, and inspired. I highly recommend Ish to anyone. You won't regret it, that's for sure!"

    Verena Gruber, Archeologist

  • Two men smiling, one with sunglasses, standing outdoors next to a vehicle.

    "Ish is a one-of-a-kind individual, and I highly HIGHLY recommend you work with him, if you ever get the chance! He allows for you to process your emotions and thoughts in a way you may never have before."

    Nate Maertens, University Professor

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    "Ish has the beautiful gift of seeing your truth, of seeing what your eyes don’t see but your soul knows. He helped me to connect with my heart, moving from the stories in my mind to the feeling of inner knowing."

    James Morrissey, Data Scientist

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    "Over six sessions, I became clear of some of the blindspots around leadership and how I was showing up at work and in life. Through Ish’s support, I was able to make some potent breakthroughs that I wasn’t even aware of in the beginning, let alone break through them."

    MARK GOBIEN, TEAM LEAD

  • A blurry, close-up image with brown and beige tones, showing indistinct shapes and lines that are not clearly identifiable.

    "Through our work, I developed deeper understanding of myself and how I behave for the first time in 35 years. It’s already showing in my relationship."

    Ryan Abrams, Software Developer

  • Person with closed eyes wearing a white shirt with gold embroidery.

    "Ish has the touch of a tender poet. His words are simple yet profound. His medicine flows forth, unabashed, as from a quiet roaring river."

    Thomas Clayton, Sound Wizard

  • A blurry, close-up photo showing a dark, oval-shaped object on a beige or tan-colored background.

    "My husband and I are grateful for Ish from the bottom of our hearts for all that he has provided our son- mentor-wise, spiritual- wise, adventure-wise, emotional-wise, connection-wise."

    Corinne Smth

  • Portrait of a man with a beard and dark shirt against a dark background.

    "Ish is a brother I value deeply. He is a leader of breadth, quiet strength and heart."

    Speed Weed, TV Producer and Embodiment Coach

  • Professional man in a gray suit with a red tie, smiling, against a black background.

    "Ish has true vision and force. His passion, rigor and patience is empowering. His capacity for observation and taking intuitive action is exemplary."

    Richard Burton, Lawyer

  • Smiling man wearing glasses and a green shirt against a dark background.

    "Ish has genuine, authentic curiosity. That shows in his work and in his interactions. I’m grateful for his ability to hold space and his ability to direct in the most precise way, at the most precise time."

    Carlo Federiconi, Program Manager

  • Man with a beard wearing a maroon sweater standing with arms crossed in front of a white curtain.

    "Ish has an uncanny ability to connect and understand where someone’s coming from."

    Quadri Akande, Solutions Engineer

  • Smiling man wearing a patterned headband and shirt, with a rainbow reflection on his face.

    "Ish is the man!! He is simply a model in terms of how to be a great presence to others. A natural diplomat and a person who will enrich your life."

    Simon Dragon, Hypnotherapist

  • A blurry, close-up photo of a dark-colored object with a background of beige or light brown wall.

    "Ish encouraged me to pursue what I love because, in the end, it will pay off more than anything."

    Steve Sloane, Graduate Student

  • Two people outdoors, one smiling in a blue jacket, the other wearing a hooded sweater, having a conversation.

    "Being in Ish’s container was the catalyst for my growth. This group helped push me to take some brave steps, including leaving Canada and returning back to Europe after 5 years, and forming my own group. It was life changing, and if you give this work a chance, I have no doubt it can change your life too."

    Kevin Rafalski, Carpenter

  • A young man with a short beard and smiling face, wearing a gray hoodie and a black and green sports jacket, touching his head, standing in front of a graffiti wall with various colored paint strokes.

    "Ish helped me find tools that I could use in my day-to-day life to stay grounded and more focused."

    Sofianne Yetto, Customer Success Specialist

  • Smiling person with curly hair and crossed arms standing outdoors with trees and cabins in the background.

    "Ish did a beautiful job of helping me to feel deeply supported from the moment the session started right through till the end. I felt like I could deeply trust him to go wherever I needed to go in that. If you're thinking about working with Ish, I can't recommend him enough based on my experience of him."

    JACK BUNCE, Healing Guide and Breathwork Facilitator

  • A woman with short curly dark hair wearing a white uniform with a name tag, outdoors near water on a sunny day.

    "Ish has helped me to be aware of some parts of my character that I was not aware of in my whole life before. His immense care and devotion to my evolution has as helped to improve my knowledge on soft skills to better understand my personality and behavior with others, and how to shift them for betterment for all.”

    JANET MORA, Head of Customer Success

  • Black and white photo of a smiling man in a suit jacket and collared shirt outdoors near a body of water.

    "The processes that we embarked were gut wrenching, soul cleansing, and felt like giving birth. The space that Ish holds is of true reverence to something deeper than many of us can touch, but only feel in our bones. It's been one of the greatest periods of my life. I would recommend him to anyone looking for a deeper dive into their soul.”

    Mikael Hayden, Leadership Coach

  • "I feel very inspired by Ish's work, his leadership skills and when it comes to stepping into my power and pushing through hardships and challenges, life throws at me as opportunities for growth. I can highly recommend working with Ish to anyone who is willing to do the work and may want some guidance of where to start or support on their individual journey. Thank you Ish!"

    Joel Rafalski, Cabinetmaker and Landscaper

  • Person sitting in sunlight against a brick wall, wearing a light blouse, eyes closed, with long hair and a pendant necklace.

    "Ish has been an incredible catalyst for growth and change in my life. He's been someone I have trusted countless times to help me find the true voice of my soul, to learn to love and trust more deeply and live more authentically. His energy alone is medicine. I can't recommend this man's work enough!.”

    JASSY BLUE, WOMEN’S MENTOR

Frequently asked questions

  • Therapy typically focuses on healing past wounds. This work integrates that healing with embodied action in the present. We're not just processing - we're building new capacity for aliveness, intimacy, and purpose.

  • If you're single or your partner isn't ready for joint work, start with individual coaching. If you're both committed to transformation, consider couples work. If you're drawn to initiation and community, explore the men’s expedition or co-ed vigil.

  • That's honest - and actually the perfect place to start. This work meets you exactly where you are and helps you develop capacity for what you're ready to face.